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Name: Christina
Country: Germany
Metro: Frankfurt
Birthday: 1/5/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: Tenisu no Oujisama, Yugiou, Nadia, Skip Beat, Naru Taru, Fruits Basket, Hoshi no Kinka, GTO, H2, Lunch Queen, Kimeru, Sakai Noriko, Arashi, Tenimyu, Rajipuri, Japanese, Japan, Austria, Tennis, Music, Dancing, Soccer
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
MSN: neko_nyako@hotmail.com
ICQ:  334260629
Member Since:
6/14/2005
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| It came, the letter from GLS came! They found a host family already! Really! Really! I am sooooo happy *_*
Well, the location is on kyuushu, not that close to tokyo or oosaka. It's a city with a population of 450.000 (soo high °_°) and it's called Oita. It's quite close to fukuoka. I also got the adresse of the school, which seems to be quite close to the family's house. And they seem to accept exchange students regulary. At the moment, they have a boy who stays until february and then i come at the end of march. Atm, i am desperately trying to find my school's homepage. ^^;
I will contact them tonight via email.
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| Today the second and third (last) concerts are hold.
Aja, i will sing for you tonight. Please listen.
"Shine for you" - my song for you
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| diesirae.org
i wrote my entry into this page just now. i want to say good-bye trough
that... i hope you'll read it, Aja, from where ever you are.
I try my best to go back to normal now. Dunno, it's much better than yesterday.
Thanks to everyone, who sent nice words to me. I love you all. All of you.
Please, do not leave, too..
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| i cried like the whole day today. I dunno how i shall come over that. I
didn't even know here this well. but now i sit there the whole day
crying. Yah, i cry now, but it does not help. One hour passes, another
hour passes... what should i do... what to do?... i am not going to go
to school tomorrow. I want someone to talk, to share my feelings, i
don't even know how to put it in words. dammit, dispear, feeling. I
don't want you anymore.
i just left animexx. i cannot go to the community anymore, where I
found out about that. I cannot .. i just can't. ... i finally deleted
her from MSN... i deleted the song, she left us behind... "Die Roten
Rosen - Der Weihnachtsmann vom Dach".... i don't want, even accidently,
listen to that again. how can a human actually write such a song? does
he lack humanity or something? I hate "Die Toten Hosen" i hate them, i
detest them from today on.
Aja, i don't know what do to. Should i hate her? I used to say, i hate
people who kill themselves for being cowards. what should i say now. I
read her last entry in her blog just now. It seemed so ... ok... just
this one sentences.
if i think, that that was just some hours before she killed herself.
dammit i cannot stand it anymore.. i want this feeling to disappear. please.
i didn't even realize that that day passed. what happend? nothing.. i feel ugly... or whatover..
what should i do, i cannot hate her. i cannot pity her either.
but, why, i don't know why, she never seemed that depressed. never. i just didn't realize it. that's it.
today was her funeral. i will never forget her, but for now, only in
order to get this feeling out of my head and to start "living"
productive again...
but, dammit aja, you promised to talk to me more often! you promised.
I'll wait for your message this new year! you know it.. come back, and
say that it was a joke
"Aja's old now. Happy. if just there wasn't this
"hello-u-fail-feeling"... but i will kill it XDD" (Dec 3th, Aja's
Webdiary)
Alexandra Artes aka Aja (Dec 1st, 1988 - Dec 4th, 2005)
Rest in Peace, and thanks for being my friend.
On the 19th and 20th of this December, i will sing for you. Please come
and listen. May my feelings and my last words of farewell reach you.
Forever yours,
M-chan
I won't write anything more on that. I want to forget, at least, temporally.
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| On December 4th, my friend Alexandra Artes, better known as Aja, died. Today, i found out about it.
Aja, Danke. Danke dass du meine Freundin gewesen bist, obwohl wir,
besonders in letzter Zeit nur noch so wenig Kontakt hatten. Wie lange
kannten wir uns schon... fünf Jahre? Ich glaube es war die
Hexenschule... wo wir uns kennen gelern haben. Wir haben früher oft
gechattet. Dann, haben wir uns wohl im Januar 2004 gestritten und haben
fast das ganze Jahr nicht miteinander geredet. Es tut mir Leid. Dann,
ich war so wirklich glücklich, hast du mir kurz nach 0 Uhr am 1.Januar
2005 geschrieben und mir ein frohes neues Jahr gewünscht. Ich war so
froh, dass wir wieder miteinander reden konnten. Wirklich. Du hattest
gesagt, dass du mich dieses Jahr öfter ansprechen würdest, weißt du?
Hast du auch. Du bist für mich wirklich wichtig geworden. Warum konnten
wir uns nicht treffen?
Und jetzt bekam ich heute die Nachricht, dass du tot bist. Ich kann das
nicht glauben. Das kann nicht sein. Sag mir doch dass es nicht sein
kann. Mein MSN hat deinen Namen wie eh und je aufgelistet. Als ob
nichts wäre. Ich kann mir nicht vorstellen dass du weg bist! Komm
zurück und sag mir dass du nicht tot bist. Bitte.
Sag, wo bist du jetzt? Warum bist du jetzt so weit entfernt?
Ich hoffe du wirst glücklich, da wo du jetzt bist, glücklicher als da wo du vorher warst.
Thank you. I won't forget you forever.
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